@rachaelspooky this one's a hard question
while having a body resembling a cis woman's as much as possible is like, everything I want, I think I still wouldn't want to be cis
because if I was born a cis woman, my life experiences would be tremendously different, and like, would that even be me?
If I could become a cis woman right now, I would 100% want that, but if instead I could only change my past so I'd be born a cis woman, I just don't like that