kinda negative, vent-ish maybe?
ok, so i want to explain what's going on (why i keep disappearing)basically...
during my 7-month fedi break, i got a job and now i need to choose how to spend my free time, because i don't have as much anymore. although i like fedi and the people here, i prefer to spend my time doing other things than scrolling through social media
also, i gotta be honest: being on fedi felt kind of frustrating for me. not because of anything wrong with fedi itself, but because my socially awkward ass simply doesn't allow me to create deep connections with anyone. i really wanted to be friends with people here, but i just couldn't have a conversation that didn't feel awkward or strange, which demotivated me from even trying. in other words, my experience here was basically watching people interact and talk about cool things while i thought "i wish i could do that too"
and now, what happens? well, i don't intend to shut down this instance or delete this account. i'll keep it around in case i ever want to use fedi again, as i do think that might happen in the future. i don't really know why, i just have a feeling
but for now, don't expect anything from this account